Arun Chadha is in town. he had called dharam from delhi to say that he wanted to shoot for 2 days and needed a sound recordist. dharam was surprised and asked him 'did you call arun? he is here only.' and he gave me the phone. frankly i was feeling odd that he forgot about me, even after we were togetherfor a whole month in jhansi. i screwed him on phone very well. i also decided that i will try to avoid doing his work and teach him a lesson. that was the instant reaction. later he sms'ed me about a program based on science. he asked me if i can do it right from 'concept note to script and make' it. i said 'yes' instantly for the offer, conditions may change as the dealings go further. after this i got a bit composed. i also decided to work on his 2 days shoot.
i am trying to change. i am watching myself, my thoughts and my actions. i think i am better reigned now and not getting swayed by mood. i am also avoiding feeling offended. actually no one is trying offend any one.
i am meeting him in a few minutes to discuss his 2 days shoot and the science program that he has offered me. let us see. i will keep myself in control and keep in good humor. i must not show undue temper or resistance to anyone's ideas any more; especially if i am getting something out of him. i guess that is mean. actually the rule applies to everyone. NO BEING MEAN TO ANYONE ANY MORE.
Hmmm...
Today I finally called up D G Associates (CA for our Hsg Society) to get ideas about what should be done in case of 2 defaulters cum bullies of our building. Well I spoke to Suryakant and narrated to him my version. He said 'madam' was not in. She will be in at 4pm and if she does then He will call me and then I can come and talk about my case to her. I am ready to meet her. I do have a clarity about putting my case. In fact talking to Suryakant was a good rehearsal for me in putting my point across.
I would like to send this building to the registrar if the thnigs do not fall on the track, ie Kumar and Seth must pay up their dues. And Kumar must resign from Chairmanship. He has been sitting on that chair for the past 8-9 years.
* I like trees because they seem more resigned to the way they have to live than other things do. -- Willa Cather
* We always admire the other person more after we have tried to do his job. -- William Feather
* Ability is poor man's wealth. -- M Wren
* If you can't do as you wish, do as you can. -- R W Griswold
* The greatest potential for controlling the ends is to exist at the point where the action takes place. -- Louis A Allen
* The more we do, the more we can do; the more busy we are the more leisure we have. -- William Hazlitt
* There are people who make things happen, then there are who watch things happening and finally there are people who wonder at what happened. -- Anonymous
* Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action. -- Benjamin Disraeli
* To respond is positive, to react is negative. -- Zig Zigler
Some of my own thoughts --
* Takaza hai waqt ka, ki toofanon se joojho,
Kab tak chaloge yoonhi, kinare kinare.
* Folks- 'I am going to be around, untill the very last moment'.
*Religion is for those who are scared to go to hell. -- Bonnie Raitt
*Happiness can be travelled to, owned earned, worn or consumed. It is the spiritual experience of living every minute with the knowledge that you are living it. -- Denis Brown
I consider myself student of many questions. The more I learn, the more questions I have. -- Dan Brown
*The especial genius of women I believe to be electric in movement, intuitive in function, spiritual in tendency -- Margaret Fuller
*Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it. -- Buddha
*I am not bothered by the fact that I am unknown. I am bothered when I don not know others. -- Confucius
*In the end all religions point to the same light. In between sometimes there are too many rules. -- Paul Coelho
*Convention opinion is the ruin of our souls. -- Rumi
*People, like pins are useless, if the lose their head.
*There are no such things as failure; learn from it and go on.
*Small opportunities are often the beginning of great enterprise.
*Worry never robs tomorrow of its sorrow, it only saps today of its joy.
*Do not wait for success, go ahead without it.
*Beauty in things exists in minds which contemplates them.
*All that is gold does not glitter. Not all those who wander are lost.
The purpose of life is to have life of purpose. -- Robert Byrne
I know of but one freedom and that is freedom of the mind. -- Antoine De Saint-Exupery
The highest destiny of individual is to serve rather than to rule. -- Albert Einstein
Search for the truth is noblest occupation of the man; its publication is a duty. -- Ann Louise Germaine de Stael
The worlds is the prison of believers and paradise of non-believers. -- Islamic proverb
Doubt isn't opposite of faith; it is an element of faith. -- Paul Tillich
The one predominant duty is find one's work and do it. -- Charlotte Perkins Giliman
Failure seldom stops you. What stops you is the fear of failure.
While we are postponing, the life speeds by.
Tell me who admires you and loves you, and I will tell you who you are.
Imagination is a poor substitute for experience.
Failure is the opportunity to begin again, more intelligently.
Putting ethics into practice involves courage more than conviction.
Success brings growth and growth means change. Don't be afraid to change.
KVK FILM
30.06.08 / TAPE 5 / KPCL - MAILOTTI
DETAILS UPTO MINS
ROADSIDE FOREST SHOTS 4
EXTERIOR KPCL, CONTROL ROOM, ENGINE ROOM 23.45
HT SWITCH GEAR ROOM 28
CONTROL ROOM (MORE MONITOR SHOTS) 32
---- WRAP AT 8.10PM
01.07.08 / TAPE 6 / KPCL
GATE SHOTS, CAR PASSES GATE, UNDER CHIMNEY 14
---- LOCATION WRAP 10AM /
REACHED PASHCHIM HYDRO / KEMPUHOLE / 3.30PM
LARGE BLUE MOTORS, PEOPLE,, EXTERIOR, BUILDING,
SWITCH YARD, CONTROL ROOM 32
TAPE 7
CONTROL ROOM, SWITCH GEAR 11K, BATT CHARGE ROOM,
ENGINE ROOM TOP ANGLE 7.00
------WRAP 7.45PM /
HOTEL ASHRITA, SAKLESPURA AT 8.45PM
02.07.08
DRIVING TO NAGAPPATTINAM, MMS STEEL AND POWER PVT LTD UNIT – 1
REACHED AT 11.30PM
03.07.08 / MMS UNIT - 1
LONG EXTERIOR SHOTS, PAN FROM VILLAGES 14
(BLUE TONE)
GATE, SIGN BOARD, SECURITY 18
GAS ENGINES, GAS SWEETENING PLANT, RE-TAKES GAS ENGINES,
GAS SWEETENING PLANT CU'S 26
EXHAUSTS, RADIATORS, CHIMNEYS, INTERIOR ENGINE ROOM 32
TAPE 8
ENGINE ROOM TOP ANGLE (CAMERA VIBRATING), CONTROL ROOM
EXTERIOR RE-SHOOT 11
-----LOCATION WRAP 11.45AM
MMS UNIT – 2 / 3.30PM
EXTERIOR, TROLLEY SHOTS - ENGINE ROOM, CONTROL ROOM
SWITCH GEAR ROOM, TOP ANGLE SHOTS FROM ONGC BUILDING,
GATE SHOTS,
VIEW FROM THE FIELDS 25
VILLAGE SCHOOL, CHILDREN PLAYING, HOME PROVIDED
WITH TOILETS 27
------WRAP 5.50PM
04.07.08 / RVK, KONKEPUDI POWER PLANT / 4.30PM
CONTROL ROOM 32
TAPE 9
CONTROL ROOM, TOP ANGLE SHOTS OF PLANT, SUN SET, CLOUDS,
CHIMNEYS, SWITCH YARD, GRID CABLES, LIGHTS ON,
TROLLEY SHOTS SWITCH GEAR ROO
-------WRAP 8PM
05.07.08 (PLANT SHUT DOWN)
ENGINE ROOM WITH TROLLEY + WIDE ANGLE, STAFF, CU'S,
TOP ANGLE FROM OH-CRANE 33
TAPE 10
STATIC TOP ANGLE ENGINE ROOM 3
----- LOCATION WRAP 11.30AM
VIJAYWADA KRISHNA BRIDGE 10
06.07.08 / HYDERABAD / CORPORATE OFFICE
OFFICE ATMOSPHERE, PRINTER, BOARD ROOM 25
TAPE 11
VIJAY KUMAR, TANK BUND
-------SHOOTING SCHEDULE ENDS
]]>This is being (b)logged a little late; perhaps more than a month late. on 20 June, 2008. i had gone for KVK Energy corporate film shoot to Chhattisgarh. Venu asked me to do this shoot. cameraman mahendra rayan, assistant mahesh and attendant sunil were part of the unit. the camera was digi-beta 790. flight from mumbai was at 9.30am.
flight generally was pleasant, but just before landing the airplane shuddered violently side ways. it felt like a boat pitching. due to this something went wrong in my stomach and i started getting a strong puky feeling. i started sweating too. i was fanning myself with a news paper as i felt the cold blower was not enough. i was seriously trying to understand this feeling. my mind went to problems of heart or stroke. my mind was functioning and it was checking all the parameters. finally after a while the sick feeling subsided; but my stomach was still tight. i picked up a nice health magzine from the plane. there was also a nice health article in the TOI, kolkata.
we were out of the airport in 20 min after landing. mr. reddy, our guide and contact was late. there was a Tata Safari for our travel to Korba. after loading i realised that the car was crammed for us all. two boys sat in front seat. back seat had 3 of us and camera. the rear was full of equipment.
all decided that we should get out of the city fast and try to reach a Dhaba during lunch time. the driver said he can do that by 1.30pm. i said it was fine. but we got to the Shere Punjab at 3.15pm. we all were very hungery. orders were placed. food was good. this place was at 'Chakar Bhatha'. we again stopped for tea at Pali around 5pm. it has been raining around here. driver was very knowledgable about this region. reached Korba at 6.30pm, got in Room#112. later tested the camera and loaded first tape. also checked the mike. shoot format 4:3.
at 8.15 had bath and dinner in my room. slept at 10pm.
21 June. we left hotel at 8am after breakfast. reached first power plant SVPL site. there was nothing. just flat land and some bull dozers and trucks. it looked very blank. also it was drizzling continuously. no work worth shooting was being done. but i created some shots and shot about 17 min length.
we moved out from here after 2 hours of shooting. next plant was LANCO. it was under construction in real sense. there was a lot of activity. the land area was very large and a lot of metal and other stuff was all around me. i climbed up a cement mixer that was not being used. it was as high as a 6 floor building. i took a lot of top angle shots from there. the rain was continuing. the ground was all slush. my shoes sank in wet mud a few times and got covered with mud. but the shoot here was quite good, due to the structure itself.
cameraman mahendra behaved badly by taking a different route after i annpunced 'wrap'. i had to carry the battery on me for nearly 2 hours. we reached the hotel at Korba at 8pm. by this time i was getting a spliting headache. i ordered cheese sandwich and milk, but could not finish it. i had no idea why did i get it. after some struggle i managed Aspro and popped 2 of them before sleeping.
22 June. again we had breakfast and drove off for the shoot of the 3rd power plant KVK Bio. this plant uses coal a well as rice husk for heating the boilers. got some good shots of coal on the conveyer belt and also husk being moved in trucks. mahendra on 2 occasions behaved very badly and i was sure that i was not going to work with him again. after taking the shot of the gate at 3.45 pm i called it a 'wrap' and we moved to Raipur. we were already carrying our personal bags along in the car.
reached hotel Simran (Room# 504) at Raipur at 7pm. Ordered Veg Pulao for dinner at 9pm. met Surendra, Venu's friend first time. he looked very different than i had thought. he sat for sometime and then left. i kept surfing the TV channels for long time.i felt all the movies on TV were very interesting. I watched Alag till 11.30. then my head swung due to strong wave of sleepiness. i gave in and switched off. but at 1am someone tried to open my door to enter. i was asking "wjo are you?" and he kept trying to turn the handle to come in. i called the reception and called Surendra too. some peope collected outside. i opened the door. Surendra said 'sorry' and then I again wnt to sleep. most likely some that was some drunk guy, who spoilt my sleep.
23 June. our flight was around 2pm. reached back mumbai and dropped 4 exposed, 2 blank tapes and lights-bag at the Provideo office at 5pm.
]]>in the morning pranav and seema went to the hospital. chachaji and me were supposed to visit in the aftrnoon. but before our visit time one of the boy servants came running up and said "you both get ready, car is coming, nani has died." well this time the news was already here. i was sticking to chachaji. i walked behind him while climbing up or down the steps. he went in and came out after a while. he was crying. i made him sit next to me. he cried a little more, then started settling down. seema and me both walked in to see chachiji. she looked very thin. her mouth and eyes open just a bit. but her face did not have signs of any struggle. i mumbled to seema "poor thing, how much she suffered." she kissed her hand "i know."
dulari chachi was on her way from New Zealand. she arrived late at night, due to her the cremation was not done on the same day and was planned for next morning. harish seema and some friends started their actions on the hospital formalities and booking the cremation place. i left with chachaji and came back home.
people started dropping by to condole as the news spread 'person to person.'
]]>morning of this day (19 July, 2008) chachiji had a very strong expression on her face. she sis not extend her hand towards me like the first day. as i spoke to her about who all are sitting outside to meet her, her facial expression became very intense. it said very painfully "i am sorry i have given everyone so much trouble. or how much of a bother i have been to all of you. due to my pathetic condition everyone has gone so much out of their way" etc etc
i could not see her saying all those things quietly. so this time i left even earlier, barely a minute later.
same afternoon a call was recieved by someone at home that chachaji and i have to go to the hospital, driver is coming to fetch us. we both thought that this was the moment. chachaji was very jittery. in the car i asked him to breath deeply to make him a bit relaxed.
we reached there. seema wa there too. she said "oh i said only papa was to come." but it was all fine. it seems chachiji wanted to see chachaji. he went in and met her.
later he told that i asked her a few things like "do you want to come home; to which she said NO. he said when seems asks the same question, she says YES. she says NO to everything i ask." i felt bad for him. but he said it with a sense of humour.
]]>I have missed last Sunday this time, as my Chachi was not well. She has expired on 20 July. So missing one Quote Hanger is fine. Here are this week's better ones:-
-Putting ethics into practice involves courage more than conviction.
-When you blame and criticize others, you avoiding some truth about yourself.
-Humility is a strange thing. The moment you think you have got it, you have lost it.
Either you decide to stay in the shallow end of the pool or you go out into the ocean.
-Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and looks like Work.
-Change direction or you may end up where you are heading. -- Lao Tzu
If you don't find god in the next person, it's a waste of time looking for him further. -- Mahatma Gandhi
There are only two ways to look at life. One is as though there is no miracle and other is as though everything is a miracle. -- Albert Einstein
He was a wise man who invented God. -- Plato
When did I know I was God? I was praying and suddenly realised I was talking to myself. -- Peter O' Tool
The fewer the words the better the prayer. -- Martin Luther
You can out truth in the gravel but it wouldn't stay there. -- Clarence W Hall
A nation can't afford to be materially rich and spiritually poor. -- John F Kennedy
Writing about values help us see our own follies.
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