...zara si baat

me: where r u? why r u not in the room? on ur comp? why ur chat is not on? why r u not on chat with me? etc etc / zindagi ek sawal hai / ab sawal ye hai ki agar zindagi sawal hai to "?" kya hai?

me: kya "?" hee zindagi hai / kya zindagi ek question mark hai ya iski tarah tedhi hai / ...shayad dono /

result=zindagi ek tedha sawal hai/
Sent at 9:09 PM on Wednesday/16.07.08

me: i can call u, but m feeling lazy & u might say 'why r u calling again' / chalo jo bhi hai / can u sms me before u sleep? / just like that only / bye

I have been quite busy for the past 2 months. Due to this I am not getting enough time to write any thing other than this Hanger, which I feel should be regular. Hopefully soon things will change and I will be seen here more often than now.

You yourself, as much as anybody else in the universe, deserves your love and affection. -- Buddha

The ink of a scholar is more sacred than the blood of a martyr. -- Muhammad

Aboriginal people are key because they have different sens of where we belong and how we interact with the nature. -- Dabid Steindt-Rast

The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. -- Albert Einstein

Happiness can't be travelled to, earned or consumed. It is the spiritual experience of being aware while living your entire life. -- Dennis Waitley

In the end it all comes down to enthusiasm. Your creativity is basically your expression of God-force. -- Stuart Wild...   I would like to alter the second part in this way - "Your creativity is basically your expression of the inner force that you feel with each new experience."

You give but little when you give of your possessions. It is when you give of yourself that you truly give. -- Khalil Gibran

If we are incapable of finding peace in ourselves; it is pointless to search elsewhere.

There is nothing so useless as doing efficiently that should not be done at all.

Of all feats of skill the most difficult is that of being honest.

Minds re like parachutes. They only function when they are open.

The eye see only what the mind is prepared to comprehend.

We must accept finite disappointment, but we should never lose infinite hope.

People who don't get crazy ideas, have more chances of going mad. -- Arunoday

I have been away for shooting since last Sunday and returned home late night, last Sunday on July 6, 2008. Well this hanger is for that days.

We can not change anything in our lives, unless we accept it. -- Carl Jung

Our life is frittered away by details... start simplifying it right now. -- Thoreau

You have succeeded in life when all you want is what you need. -- Vernon Howard

Man's main task in life is to give birth to himself. -- Erich Fromm

Failure is only the opportunity to begin again, more intelligently. -- Henry Ford

In the practice of tolerance, one's enemy is the best teacher. -- Dalai Lama

Keeping your body healthy is an expression of gratitude to the whole cosmos - the tree, the clouds; everything. -- Thich Nhat Hanh

The test of courage comes when w are in the minority. The test of tolerance comes when we are in the majority. -- Ralph W Sockman

Thoroughly to teach another is the best way to learn for yourself.

Imagination is the highest kite on can fly.

If you clutch the past tight to your chest, the your arms may be too full to embrace the present.

Genius does what it must and talent does what it can.

Don't wait for it to happen. Don't even want it to happen. It will happen, in time - relax. -- arunoday

After a long time I came across a quote that provided me with a freshness in thought and real usefulness in life. It is the first one down here.

The trouble with most people is that they think with their hopes or fears or wishes rather than their minds. -- Will Durant

How wonderful it is that nobody needs to wait a single moment before starting to improve the world. -- Anne Frank

The best love affairs are those we never had. -- Norman Lindsay

There is no security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life and in change there is power. -- Alan Cohen

The secret of joy in work is contained in one word - excellence. To know how to do something well; is to enjoy it. -- Pearl S Buck

Is it so hard to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates and Jesus, Luther, Copernicus and Galileo, Newton and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Those who hate you don't win unless you hate them -- and then you destroy yourself.

Not failure but aiming low is the criminal.

There is only one success -- to be able to spend your life in your own way.

No one has ever loved anyone, the way everyone wants to be loved.

The misfortunes hardest to bear are those which never come.

If we had no faults we should not take so much pleasure in noticing them in others.

Last Sunday (June 22) I was traveling. I had gone to Raipur for a shoot and even after coming back i was a little tied up with time. i have been clash/dubbing for a sick friend. So better late than never. all i can say is that the last unday is here now.

Ability may get you to the top, but it takes character to stay there. -- Stevie Wonder

Move out of your comfort zone. You can only grow if you are willing to feel awkward and uncomfortable when you try something new. -- Brian Tracy

Whatever liberates our spirit without giving us self control is disastrous. -- Goethe

Be not afraid of life. Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact. -- Willian James

Integrity is the foundation upon which all other values are built. -- Anonymous

Flowing water never goes stale, so keep on flowing. -- Bruce Lee

Always look at what you have left. Never look at what you lost. -- Robert H Schuller

All of us oerform better and more willingly, when we know why we are doing what we have been asked to do. -- Zig Ziglar

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from the mediocre minds. -- Albert Einstein

Till you change how you are, you will have what you have got. -- Jim Rohn

Don't matter how much money you got, there is only two kinds of people; there is saved people and there is lost people. -- Bob Dylan

Only those who dare to fail greatly can achieve greatly.

To handle yourself use your head, to handle others use your heart.

Doing what's right isn't the problem. It's knowing what's right.

The most pathetic person in the world is someone who has sight, but not the vision.

I was getting anxious before i left for Raipur. I am back already and have done a reasonably good job. This part of KVK energy shoot i had to cover 3 plants. we did 2 on the day-1 that is on 21 June. we reached raipur on dot at 11.45am, then drove down to Korba. Korba is know for coal mines and so there are a lot of power plants coming up there. it makes economic sense to to produce thermal/coal based electricity where coal is available.

we reached Ventral Point hotel at Korba at about 7pm. i settled in my room (# 112). the room was hust about clean; but it had no view. front low windows opened into the passage and back had view of all sort od pipes etc. so i kept them shut and used the A/C. i normally would not like to use the A/C if there was some ventilation.

next morning we left hotel after breakfast (8.15am) for the shoot of first plant called SVPL. we took more than an hour to get there. there were just 2 temporary function bulidings for the costruction staff. there was massive expanse of land that had been leveled at best. it had been drizzling and mud was soft. many places my shoes sank into the mud. we did a lot of coverage of scanty work being done by trucks, bull-dozers and excavatores. i took shots of plinths of some huge pillars that have been made to support the heavy structure later. we left from here around 11 and drove to another plant called LANCO. it is very big and has cappacity of generating more than 600 MW. there are 2 seperate sections of 300 MW each. i am not sure of the capacity at the moment.

shoot here was quite tough. we did not have helpers, except on the first location. we started with climbing on topf of a tall concrete mixer. from here we could see all around the plant. there was a lot of steel girders, rods and such material lying around in an area of nearly 1000 acres. it is indeed a big venture. it kept raining on and off and kept our movements restricted. due the slippery mus the car was moving freely too. it was skidding. so we had to walk and climb to most places. we had all the cooperation for shooting but did not get physical help to carry our equipment.

w did some big shots here. large cranes picking heavy stuff, people going dangerously high up in an cable trolly, shots of turbine blades, chimneys, boilers etc. i think we shot here till 6pm when it got pretty dark inside. from outside we had practically covered everything.

i packed up and rest of unit made a mes by walking in the wrong direction and calling the car through the slippery mud. while i stood where i was supposed to. now the car could not come back for me. we made so many calls between us. finally i decided that i will take a lift to the gate and if it works out will take another lift to go to Korba. i called Reddy (KVK guy) and told him that i am going to the main gate. stragely no one felt bad or sorry for making things difficult for me. i too cooled it. got to the hotel. i realised i was getting a very bad headache. i could not analyze its reason. i called the hotel photel to get me some pills. i also told Reddy about it. he said he will get it fro me. but it took a long time before some got disperine instead of others like aspro and anacin. i dissolved 2 disperines in water, drank it up and hoped for the best. i just had milk for dinner.

in the morning i was fine. we checked out of our rooms after breakfast and drove to the last plant. we reached there in about an hour. this plant is functioning. it has small capacity of 86MW, perhaps. we shot the entire day here, covering cola movement, husk movement, exterior structure, waste dumping area and switch yard. from here the power cables join the main grid. after this shifted inside covering the control panel, technicians, computer screens, turbines and all. we wrapped for lunch around 2pm and after that w drove to take a shot of the gate and the sign board of the name.

i announced the wrap at 3.45 and we headed for Raipur to stay the night. i wanted to click pictures of the bio-diesel plant. i got some desi variety; but not the upgraded versions. after driving for more than 3 hours we checked in the hotel. my room here  was 504. clicked 2 pix outside the hotel in the morning. everything looked ordinary.

we all got the airport at 10.30 for a 12 noon flight. as i put my tickets on the desk they told me the flight was late by 2 hours. we flew off at 2pm and were back in Mumbai. i went to provideo to drop the lights and the digi-beta tapes.

at 6pm i was surprised to find everyone at home!

Me - getting a little anxious about the Raipur shoot Raipur for KVK energy. it is provideo's corporate film. A unit of 4 is leaving tomorrow morning. the anxiety is not exactly a negative feeling; but just a natural over excitement. since something like this has not happened with me for a long time. last time i went for a shoot as a director or head of unit was way back during Plus channel times. i headed the team during P Chidambaram and PM of Bangladesh shoots. both those shoot were great. so great this too will be; the only point is 'how great'?

i am alone at home right now, since 10am. sushila has gone to meet Lakshmi and she thinks that today is her last day of work with her. Fine if it is so then be it.

Anil Ambani has tied up financially with my favorite director Steven Spielberg. there was some unentanglement between DreamWorks and Paramount. That has been sorted out with investment of about $600mn from ADAG. so Spielberg is now 2 hand shake away from me.

Here is wishing Good Luck to me, for KVK shoot and for rest of my stay on this planet. take care

yesterday (June 17, 2008) too i went to pune on venu's offer. he was going alone for a personal work. we left at 6am and were back at 6pm. a day earlier, i had heard that iris had hurt her arm, due to a fall. i knew it will pain her for long time. so i decided to visit her and so decision to travel. my visit was a total successful surprise. i could meet iris, manisha and aarti. kids were not there. but i did speak to bashir in his shop. it seems he is getting better very swiftly, otherwise psoriasis is not an easy desease to cure. manisha told me about the doctor (anita dudhane) in goa. she seems to have a great method to diagnose the allergies in your body.

i went to his office and was tieing up the corporate film ends. i made a file for it and sent some mails. venu too gave me some material on it to read. i have been on phone to a surendra of KVK. the shooting dates have shifted from 16th to 18 th now. it will get confirmed today.

It has been nearly a month at provideo for me. i have gone to the office practically everyday. i went even yesterday, a sunday. a marathi game show fell in their lap from 'mi marathi' (sab TV). they have been struggling to get the budget in line. they will be able to get it today, i think.

then 2 days back another project came through a friend of Venu only. it is a corporate film on a power plant. i am not naming it here. so he told me that i should go with a cameraman to raipur to shoot one section of the film. i offered to attend the editing of it. i guess i will be leaving tomorow (17th June). it wil be 2 days shoot. though we are travelling by air, we still cannot do any work on the days of travel.

Nothing shows man's character more than what he laughs at. -- Goethe

Without deviation from the norm, progress is not possible. -- Frank Zappa

Positive anything is better than negative nothing. -- Elbert Hubbard

When we cling on to pain, we end up punishing ourselves. -- Leo F Buscaglia

He that can compose himself, is wiser than that who composes books. -- Ben Franklin

Most difficult knowledge to acquire is knowing yourself. -- Thales

It is not what you pay a man, but what he costs you that counts. -- Will Rogers

It is the test of a good religion whether you can joke about it. -- Gilbert K Chesterton

The secret of happiness is freedom and secret of freedom is courage. -- Thucydides

Comment is free; but facts are expensive.

God, save me from my friends; I can protect myself from my enemies.

The world is dangerous place, not because of those who do evil but because of those who look on and do nothing about it.

There are times when silence has the loudest voice.

The best feeling are those that have no words to describe them.